A Very Un-ladylike Embryo Transfer

embryo transfer, FET, frozen embryo transfer, infertility, ivf, pcos

**this is an old post of mine that I drafted over the summer after my first FET. Figured I’d share it now. I did not post it in “real time” because I didn’t want to jynx anything. This was the FET that resulted in my 3rd miscarriage. I sounded so happy and optimistic below, sigh…***

When I first started blogging I told myself to try to stay away from my personal medical details, but once I got thrown into the realm of IVF I feel myself crossing the boundary between sharing and oversharing! Full disclosure, I get pretty blunt here- but not too graphic or anything. The purpose isn’t to scare you about transfers, but rather to provide some comic relief to this whole thing! Something where you can say, “glad that didn’t happen to me!”

Ok, so my transfer is a frozen embryo transfer. To prep my uterus for…

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Hello Anger, My New Friend

anger, infertility, pcos, ttc

Infertility is Trash

I have never been an angry person. Not because of any sort of mature, noble work on my part. It’s just not one of my emotions of choice.

I tend to feel the blue ones: sadness, disappointment, shame.

The red family of emotions are very new to me on this infertility journey. Red emotions like rage, anger, irritation, judgment.

I find myself reflecting on why anger has been foreign to me.

It’s not like I haven’t had things to feel mad about. I grew up in an alcoholic/addict home (Dad). I’ve suffered eating disorders, being cut from the high school volleyball team (lol), and have faced a mountain of student debt.

That stuff should have made me at least a touch of anger. But mostly I just worked harder.

I realize now that maybe I’ve never needed to rely on anger. If I faced a…

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We need to talk about sex

couple , dyspareunia , health , painful sex , relationship , sexual health , vaginal tear , vaginismus

Last week, I shared a video from the BBC on my instagram, about a condition called vaginismus, and alluded to my experience with dyspareunia (painful sex). I encouraged women to seek GP advice or talk to me if they were experiencing this. To my surprise, 11 people reacted or directly messaged me on the topic (I’ve assigned them a random number to be able to refer to them anonymously throughout this blog).

I have written about a lot of the things I have been through before, but I’ve only ever alluded to the problems I have had in my sex life; I was always wary of what people might think when it comes to talking about sex.

But now, I’ve seen the reactions that opening up has had, and I’ve recently read Emma Barnett’s Period book, so maybe that’s why I feel empowered to share my story. Or maybe it’s…

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Doing “it” for the first time after baby

Uncensored Mama

Hey y’all! There are a lot of new/prego mamas hangin around my Facebook and Instagram so I’m here to sprinkle some info that I was particularly curious about when I was pregnant, which was doing the dirty for the first time after baby! Pregnant mama’s beware, new mama’s may wince, and seasoned mama’s will laugh!

When I was pregnant I cherished my well kept lady bits, and I was SO not looking forward to it being wrecked after baby (I’m sure my husband wasn’t either). As I’ve mentioned before, we’re pretty hot and heavy, I mean have you seen the guy? He’s hot as hell! This did not change throughout my pregnancy. I’m sure it was an ungodly sight to see my big, swollen pregnant ass riding my that man….think of Shrek riding Donkey….that’s what I imagine it was like. Anyways, there towards the end my mom was staying with…

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What it’s like to have unexplained infertility in your twenties

blog , grief , hope , infertility , loss , moving on , personal , pregnancy , twenties , unexplained fertility

GameNora

The life of a guide writer is a busy one, and writing for pleasure has fallen somewhat by the wayside. It’s been almost a year since I last published an article here, so let me start by apologising for my silence.

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Women, say, “I’m Happy that I’m on My Periods.”

blog , blogger , happiness , healthy , life , menstruation , periods , pride , proud , respect , women

BEYOND THE END

Every month we recieve a call; a call from the uterus.
Something is on the way.
We rush to check if we have stained.
No, not yet.
We check twice or thrice before going to bed.
And later, we wake up with immense pain.
A war of 5 days.
Laying straight on bed, with those sticky pads rubbing and striking our thighs.
You see us walking with legs wider.
Because it’s inconvenient; it’s so uncomfortable.
Understand.
We feel so hungry, but really don’t wish to eat anything.
We go to the workplace, and work with physical pressure.
Hell lot of mood swings.
Nobody cares; nor they’re willing to.
After a tiring day, we take a hectic travel to reach home.
We try to sleep and try to find one comfortable position to sleep peacefully.
Hell no. We feel every drop of blood that’s dripping.
The cramps are horrible.
We survive…

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